Reflecting on Mistakes Made
I have just wrapped up an amazing 5 days with Olivia and now I sit here reflecting on life and the mistakes I have made. Some mistakes have led to great things in my life and others have not had such a positive impact. I know what you are all going to say, we must learn from our mistakes to make ourselves better and stronger people. That is true, but this is more reflection on why I made those mistakes in the first place. What is it that drove me to be so ignorant and stupid. I am not a stupid person, but my list of mistakes is stupid, idiotic and I have no idea why I have made them. Many of them have shaped parts of my life and many of them I have tried to forget and hide away. That is probably my biggest mistake of all. The time has come to just deal with it all in order to make it to the next level in my life, not to have these mistakes lingering in the background. The biggest question that haunts my mind as I reflect on these mistakes is if I am a bad person. I do not see myself as a bad person and I hope others do not, but some of my mistakes speak to a different person, one that is not me. I know I will not get all the answers I need tonight, but my mind is swirling and yes I am beating myself up about it all. I will get through this and this list of mistakes, will make me a better, stronger person in the long run, but for today they are making me weak. I know it will all work out, it always does, but for today I will reflect and try to learn some valuable lessons.
